When the ice melts

three hundred and sixty degree of spin off had moved around the air..

for me,the anticipation regarding the situation doesnt really boost the increasing level of dignity for more..


has the hair of solution has slowly giving up?

no,its not the problem that one faces..mere hope.


then? the filteration of unsatisfying lean has changes all.

has it proven the acknowledgement? please..nothing can beat it..


dug your height of damnation if u think of redemption.

Laugh.

Omayra Sanchez

When I was little,I saw this programme about tragedy and it was about this kid trapped in a water and cannot be rescued even with the help of a helicopter..

I was wondering why they couldnt help her and let her died..

The kid waved goodbye to the camera and it shocked me..Well as a kid, it really took me apart psychologically...

Then last night I saw this kid's photo on the World's Famous Photo Ever article..


That kid is Omayra Sanchez.




After so many years finding the truth (and I even thought it was a dream)..I finally understand why they cannot rescued her.

This is what I found:

Omaira Sanchez was 13 years old at the time and lived with her parents, her brother and an uncle. However, prior to the tragedy, her mother had traveled to Bogotá on business. The night of the disaster, she and her family had awakened and heard of the volcanic fluid going in their direction. In the process of evacuating to a nearby mount, Omaira's grandmother fell into a water aqueduct hole, and Omayra herself stopped with the intent to rescue her trapped sibling, when the flow reached them. Omayra got trapped under her own home's concrete and debris and could not escape. When rescue teams tried to help her, they realized that her legs were trapped.

...

I recommend to see her video on youtube,where she asked the reporter what News channel was it and ...

She sent a message to her mom..very emotional..

'"Mum, if you are listening to me, I think you are... pray so I can walk and this people can help me... Mummy, my daddy, my brother and me love you deeply. Goodbye mother"

You can see it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKL2M-qw4sU

May she rest in peace.

My wish for this year's birthday presents..So IMPOSSIBLE

I want these things! LOL..You wish Lala!


1. Chocolate moist + ice cream cake..nyummmy!





2. Snow globe that has snow (of course!) + light..OMG!


3. White-gold ring..So cute on my finger!




4. White Nike shoes..So sportilicious!




5. Silver bracelet..Gorgeous!




6. A cute xylophone..Im good at this,you know..






7. My ultimate white Kelisa..My Daniel!




8. And..A Slit-eyed Guy!!!! LOL



'Darling,can you help me with this tie?'..OMG!!!!


Although I couldnt get these things, just thinking of them makes me happy! LOL..Imagination really makes my day! Happy Birthday Me!

Mendengar dan Didengar.

Dalam menjadi seorang Aku, aku belajar beberapa perkara yang penting yang selama ini aku tinggalkan..

Aku belajar yang perlunya mendengar daripada didengar..

kadang-kala aku terleka dengan kemanisan yang aku nikmati..

kadang-kala aku terlupa akan kemanisan yang Dia beri..

Aku sedar betapa pentingnya mendengar daripada didengar

Aku sedar yang kadang-kala didengar itu bukannya sesuatu yang bernas dan penuh isinya..

Namun..

Aku masih belajar,

belajar menempuhi dan menghadapi ujian dariNya..

kadang-kala aku tewas

kadang-kala aku dapat menghadapinya.


Dan aku sedar walaupun aku bersendirian,

akan ada insan-insan yang mendampingiku dan menolongku

walaupun aku jarang mendengar

walaupun aku selalu didengar

Aku harap itu bukan penutupnya

kerana Aku masih ingin mendengar.

I feel homesick..

I miss my mother so much..

I miss my father too..

When I'm at home for the first day of holidays, I will look forward to see my mother..

Since she is a working mum, I'll have to meet her after office hours..well,sometimes after 7pm..

By that time, I'll be in my room whether sleeping (since I'll be tired from jet lag..LOL), praying or unpack my things.

She will call my name from downstairs..and when I told my sister I'll come down in a while (which actually not a while,because I'll spend quite a time doing nonsense in my room)..

She will shout from downstairs,

'Dont you want to salam mama?'

Then I will rush downstairs and find her..

And gives her the most sincere smile ever..

I miss you mum..

I miss my dad too..

He is the one who will take me from the airport and on the way to home, he will tell new stories that I missed while I was away..

My dad has been taking me from any places (Schools,tuition centers,etc..) since I was 5 years old..and now he is still doing the same to my other siblings..sometimes when Im at home, when I did all those works,I felt tired and know how it feels like doing that for years..

And my youngest brother is 10 years old..he will do these until..I dont know..

Who knows,maybe my parents will take care of their grandchildren and do this all over again..who knows right?

About my father..

He is a good listener because I always tells him spastic humour and shocking world news..(rare girl)..

He never mad crazily at me..Because if he's mad,then I'll mad and will not talk to him..But that was when i was in high school.

Since I went to further my studies in Selangor after SPM, he never mad at me (I tried to recall any incidents but none comes yet)

Except my mum, she will mad if I ask for my allowance..LOL..always.

I wonder how much money they spend on me and my siblings..since my mum is a great accountant( which is why she is so stingy about giving extra money) and my dad is a businessman (again,talking about numerical things,debit,credit,'buku lejar'..all about economy things)..

I think they know how much they spent on us siblings..and I dont even want to know..

Because I will feel extra2 guilty.

There was one time during my high school days, I spend almost RM400 on home telephone because I didnt have credit on my handphone and missed my Exbf so much..

So,I called him and you know how much Telekom will charge if you called handphone number than home number..So silly I was by that time.

And just so you know,my dad dont know about calling my Exbf,he thought I called my friend from other district..(but I think he knows)..

I got scolded of course but just for a while..thank God.


When Im with my parents, i will laugh at my best because i want them to know how happy i was with them..

Now,I missed laughing in front of them..

I did it?!

2 days ago while I was doing facebooking,I got message chat from my cousin. She ask whether I know when will my other cousin (which lives in Bangi) is going to give birth.

I answered,'early next month.'

but she said,'well, she's in labour now'..

I was shocked. Well, for me its kinda early since her due was in the middle of november.

so,my mind already set that my cousin will give birth in 5th november,which is on my birthday..LOL..or any date nearer..

So,she asked whether I could go to the hospital and accompany her.

But I couldnt go on the spot since it was raining and plus,no transport (I prefer own's car than public transport,I'm kinda not into Komuter since that incident)

So, there I was,in a dilemma.

Why? well I have to submit my assignment (10 pages) on Monday and have 3 quizzes also on that day.

If I were to go accompany her, I will spend my weekend helping her and I will not have time to do my assignment.

So, my plan?

After receiving that news after Asar, I quickly opened my baby Dhani and started doing it instaneously..

With 9 borrowed books, I started with zero page...

I know that I had to finished this assignment tonight..

With an intense focused and headache (which something that actually rare to happen on me)..

At 11pm.

I finished it.

I just couldnt believe it.

I think it's a good thing that this labour thing happened this week because it boost my mentality finishing my work.

next thing?

bring my notes for the 3 quizzes.

that's all.

I went to Hospital Kajang after Subuh with the help of my senior. Love her!

But..

when we arrived there which was nearly 8 am..

We couldnt get in because the visitor's time starts at 1pm.

HUHU!

after much persuasion to the lady guard,still there's nothing that we could do.

I guess I will not accompany her this weekend.

Me and my senior went back to the campus and arrived before noon.

I was tired due to lack of sleep. I had two hours of sleep because maybe I was worried and excited..LOL

so,now!?

I will focus on my quizzes.

I hope. LOL

I should know

..that Im not a clever person

..that Im not a good person

..that Im not a good helper

..that Im used to lying

..that not all likes me

..that not all can accept my opinion

..that Im a very hot-tempered person

..that not everyone understands me

..that I cant understand all people

..that Im just doing my job

..that Im a sensitive person

..that other's sensitivity is also essential

..that saying NO can save me

..that my ability in comprehensing my native language is getting worse

..that I love God

..that I miss my family

..that Im actually a loner

..that even a bag of money can recover my faith..

..that my health is getting critical

..that it is my duty to not make my family worry

..that..

This is Me.

The worst dinner so far..

No,I'm not saying the AGM MISI that were held last night were the worst one..

It's the other dinner..which we had to pay rm15.

Why did I said so?

Well, I paid rm15 to expect good stuff..I mean,the money that I invested especially 'dinner' should be real fantastic..

However,IT BECAME THE WORST ONE..

The food sucks!

REAL sucks!

I mean,the mee curry was not so delicious..and I cant take full amount of gravy which was supposed to because they afraid the food will be not enough for others.

Oh come on! I was like the last 8 person to take the food and still they want to minimize the gravy?!!

But it kinda ok because I cant finished it due to the taste. Thank God!

The pengat tasted sour..like it had been there for years..


AND..

LACK OF SPOONS!!!

Come on! For God's sake!

I had to wait for 20 minutes to eat properly..

DAMN!

I would rather buy dinner plate KFC plus cheezy wedges than investing my money over this dinner.

WORST!

I cant believe I took my friend's words for this.



A Much More Better Formal Dinner


Then there was my block dinner which I had to pay rm3..

Guess what?

It expect anyone's expectation!

the food was great!

The satay,lontong..superb!

No insufficient of cutleries..


I had to comment only foods since that is my priority in attending formal dinner..

Some suggest to not go to any event conducted by some clubs because of their inability of satisfying costumer..

Well,I dont know yet..

I'll see if I can overcome my pityness to friends that wanted me to come to their event even if it costly.

I hate pity!

The seriousness starts today..

This week I'm gonna be someone who is crazy..

......

try to entertain people but if I cannot make myself happy,then its just a waste..

i cant hide my unsatisfied face..

I'll show it and its up to you whether to accept it or not..

This is me..

I am me..for twice more..

Got a happy ending in a moody day..

why did I said so?

Well,some things that I thought went missing on that day finally return to me..

I got my Korean spoon which i thought already being thrown away with the food packages.. I didnt realized that I put it beside the sink..

I got my friendship with my lovely friends on the roll..

I got my lover also on the roll..haha!

Scandals? Do you think I will write it here?

hmm...perhaps next time..LOL

God do help me in various way to cheer me up..

So,I shouldnt be ego AND not giving up in finding something that is not lost yet..

Be careful me..

p/s: When will I do my assignments?..

I had a mood swing today..

I tried to accomplish something today and sadly,it doesnt come true..

Since I woke up this morning, I already feel moody..

Get up,got SMS from my friend and invited me to join her to buy her things..

So there I go, wash up and wear clothes..went to see them and went to tesco Ampang..

Still,no one can cheer me..I still feel something missing..

But, even when I dont have a good mood, I still managed to buy towel and certain things..(thanks God Im dont have a moody-should-g0-shopping-to-release-stress syndrome)..just a things that I need to buy..not that unnecessary things..

Went to this nasi ayam restaurant..I forgot the name.. The taste was so and so ,the teh o ice was so not delicious..uwekk!

After that,went to hostel..surfing and sleeping..

here I am,just woke up and blogging..

yet,I'm not in a good mood..

Still,there is tonight..maybe it can change?

Am I still sad? Mad? Unsatisfied?..let's see tonight's progress..

long time no blog...

Wah!

its been a long time not updating my blog...

lots of assignment to be done and yet I still dont have the courage to do them...

any story?

yes I have...



I was celebrating with my ex during raya last2 week... As you can see in the picture above,he is among the boys....well you will know which one since my type of favourite guy now and forever is someone like Koo Kien Keat..hehe

ANOTHER shocking story I heard today...

Rumour that said I already engaged really managed to make my day a heaven..(in heart)..



The truth is,

It's not true...haha! Come on! I still enjoy my single life now! let me live!


Any nice story?

Yes I do have...nice one..

Tada!



I got new baby last week...his name is Dhani.. My precious baby boy weight 1.15kg,white skin,10.1 inch height....Love him so much...mama have poem for you..

Such a fragile thing
Lost in a world of nowhere
Hold me and I will protect you
Such a fragile darling...

Mama will try to protect and look after you..mmuah3!

'Cantiknya' baju rayaku kali ni..

cantik mmg cantik..smpi xsnggup mo pkai pla...

why? the colour is old..the pattern is outdated...

tp kain dia berkualiti..dari jakel gitu...

apa2pun,ak xtau akan pakai atau tidak..

xsanggup la...

rasa2nya apa prasaan mama ak bila nmpk ak pakai baju lain?

I am so in dilemma..

Stuff I did when I was a kid..

I killed the little fishes from my family's pond..by putting them into a paint tinned..

Because of the curiousity, i also put one big fish ( I think its my dad's favourite )into the paint tinned and let it for about 15 minutes..

All the fishes died..

I came to conclusion that fishes cannot live in a water full of paint..

Nice experiment but cost a lot of lives..

My father would kill me if he knows this..

What a child.

macamana nak dapatkan hidung mancung..

ok2..ak mmg perasan orgnya..wlupun lobang idungku besar dan besar..tp terimala hakikatnya..idung mak ni mancung n tidak kemek..hehe

like kwn mak prnah crita..ada foreigner tu ckp idung dia mcm butang baju..hehehe..so,itu bmksd bukn mancung la..no offense..its from my friend.

ok,brdsrkn dr pmerhatian mak tgk gmbr2 dr kcil..mmg byk pbezaannya..idung ak dulu mcm idung ct sara..seyius..

tp olh krn dr kcil ak diexpose dgn pnyakit bersin2 n selesema..so automatik ak akn pegang idung stiap ms..(mcm budk hingusan kwn ak prnah ckp,siap panggl ak Shinbae dr ninja boy..but i dont care,kiut pla c Shinbae tu mcm ak..) hehe

so,stlh bbrp tahun mngamalkn budaya mgurut idung..trjadila 1 fenomena yakni prubhn bntuk d idung i..tada!!!!

(perasan sungguh ya!)..nmpk sgt teda cerita..hehe

11 september..(coretan memori terindah)

ak blik rmah hr ni..beznye..apa yg bez?

-ak dpt bbuka awl dr ikut time d kl..

-mak ak blik keje awal n da stat cuti smpi ry..

-ayah ak akan bg duit blnje..minat2 le byk..ak ni kan boros..

-adik3 ak shock tgk ak blik..rp2nye parents ak xgtau dorg..(dorg pun igt ak blik sabtu)..

-parents ak trima suggestion ak mkn bbuka dgn kfc..hehe

-ak dpt rs msakan mak ak slen kfc..air tgn tu..miss them!

-masa bbuka,ak dpt msj kwn2 ak dkt smnnjung sbb dorg lmbt bbuka..

-mak ak suka beg2 n tudung2 yg ak beli....(wlupn xbelikn bju)..

-ak xkup tdur sbb lpas dinner d pwtc mlm sblm tu,kna drive alone p bangi n kene p klia lpas sahur..bukn lpas subuh ye..

-abang ak smpt ak jump wlupn kejap..makin kurus and ensem..

-abang ak mcm jeles tgk brg2 yg ak bw..hehe

-abang ak ambil kuih almond london yg sedap..1 tapau plak tu..xde langsung balance..

-bila ayah tngkp gmbr kmi berlima,ak paling putih..haha..

Syukur Alhamdulillah..

I dont get it...

last two days, i went to my cousin's using komuter (KTMB).. I waited for at least 3times bfore managed to get in peacefully..

Btw,the timing was not right coz that time people were going back home from work..so,u just have to bear wit it.. and wit the heavy bags,heavy mind..(u know,fasting)..i tried to keep positive..

I took the Seremban way.. BUT something happened that made me shocked..

It was the second attempt for me to go inside the train..(mind you,it was hectic)..and u know the guard who take care of the passengers that wants to go out but get stuck in the middle? They are the one who shouted 'Go further! There is a space more! Go inside lah! ' while knocking hard at the windows..

There are some holding the haler or that thing with siren..(I dont know the right word now..lol)

Alright, my main story here is this...while pushing and grabbing people's back (in other words,stuck in the middle of people), the guard was also at the door which means he also stuck in the middle of the crowd..

Then suddenly..

there was this black guy (foreigner) who was also in the middle of the crowd got SHOUTED HARDLY by the guard.. and worst! using that fucking haler!

I was shocked..I thought, 'what did this guy did?'

Then,out of nowhere..while this guard shouting in unrecognizable words (which I think curse words)..

He use the haler and knock that guy's head! I repeat, knocked with the haler!

The black guy was shocked,and asked why..

But,he got more shouting and of course,swear words..

And of course he managed to get in before the guard can knocks him more..

And i didnt get in coz its too full.. I dont care about not getting in, but i was shocked with that incident.. I dont think that black guy did wrong, he just wanna enter the train.. I dont think he was doing something illegal that time like stealing or pushing.. What is it that made that guard did that to him?

Maybe bcoz he was a black? He doesnt look like a bad guy..looks like a student to me.. Mind you,living in the international U makes me able to differentiate educated and bad foreign people..and I dont think he is the bad person..really,its not that he is cute or not..he's not my type..full stop.

What makes me confuse is..why and why the guard did that to him? Doesnt that make us not considering foreign people as people too?

Or maybe the guard wants Malaysians to make priority riding the train first?..

Why?

Anyone can tell me why?

Last presentation before Eid..

Tomorrow is gonna be the day where my classmates will face a Great Boredom if they come to the class. LOL.. Why? Well,me n my girls are gonna present about Air Pollution..I repeat,Air Pollution.. Its not me who chose the title though,but because of the feeling of love towards our lovely friend..we accepted it. (which I dont know if she's already finishes with her part or not..)

Tomorrow is gonna be the day where after the presentation,I'm gonna sleep the whole evening.. LOL..

As an introducter of the presentation, I should make the attention getter to make my classmates focus on the important facts given by my other girls.. Yes,its gonna be a boring one..and I,the knight of the presentation will make them alert towards the whole presentation. Yeah!

P/s: Should you finishes with your part right now,Lala? Stop blogging and start thinking the attention getter!

sinus worry..

when i saw the video of the critical condition of a sinus person..i was so freaking scared...its true,u dont even want a school of worms living in your nose and happily goes everywhere in your nose..euu! that sucks and irritates me!

well i told my mum about it and of course,she seems worry..she doesnt want her daughter to have that serious condition and also because my other brother also facing the same thing.. my mum always said that if i got sickness,my other brother will inheritate it from me..but for him,its worst.. well,at least im not the child with most sickness anymore..lol..

back to this sinus thing, i tried the smoke things..from Cleopatra beauty company when i was in high school and its not that good..i felt difficulty in breathing and swear not doing it..but having to see that video from youtube,i changed my mind completely.. see? how a video can change people's view in an instance. lol.. i asked my mum about the leech things if they got it in my hometown..my mum said she will look for it since im the one who asked it..well,its hard for me to get medicated even if my mum tried to persuade me..so,when im the one who suggested it,what does it mean? well,it means im ready for it.. so,what else should i do to prevent my sinus becoming worst?

few days more...

i have a presentation this tuesday..the weird thing is,my heart is already at home..i keep thinking how am i going to spend these few days enduring the homesick thing..its not that homesickest but its more of a holiday fever..and one of my lecturer keep saying no absenties on the last day but well,i just have to skipped it.. what more i could say,i have to speak to him or else i got listed as his most annyoying student..hope not.

still thinking how to buy the chicken serunding and also my mum's tudung..aigoo...hope manage to buy it before going back home..chiayok!

something about 26 april..

it happened last year..the worst day of my life..i guess the song 'bad day' really suits this date..

i got back one day early from the actual registeration day thinking that the counter will open for early comer like me..but no,the counter is open but its for other student..for last semester students.. the clerk didnt even want to help me when i mentioned im from sabah and dont have any relatives here in selangor..just so u know,the clerk is young and a student..they afraid they might ruined something if help me check in early..bullshit..just say u r lazy,bitch. i was so pissed off for that kind of service..when i desperately needs help,they didnt even look into my eyes and tried to get me out from the lounge..how bad..my eyes were full of tears but not yet crying..

so i'll try to think positive by staying at the surau for the night..but thinking that i will face difficulty in finding food..i contacted my cousin..thank God she is stil here and not in vacation. But,she was busy that evening and only managed to give the room keys to me. So,i had to go to the hostel by myself..mind you,her hostel is an old condominium near chinese cemetary..and I had to go there by myself..gosh..life.

with positive attitude,i went to CM to take cab and go to the hostel. Its already sunset..and i was alone in CM with 3 heavy bags.. Since i was hungry,i went to KFC and bought snack plate to eat.. I had difficulty of taking care of 3 bags and at the same time bought the food..but,i still think positively.. However,by the time i put the food tray on my table,the drink fell and it spilled all over the table and the floor..how embarassed i was when many eyes looked at me.. pretty rough situation with me with 3 bags,adjusting the chairs and asked the worker to clean the mess..huhu..so,i just ate the food without drink..and i was so thirsty during that time.

after eating, i went to 7 eleven to buy mineral water..and after that i waited in front of UO to get the cab..thinking i will be alone taking bus and the place is really dangerous..i started to think fast. Because UO is a place full of students from the same place as my cousin,i started to talk to some of the people who waited the cab and thank God..a couple of people are going to the same place as i am. and what's more,they are also sabahan and knew my cousin..good Lord.

so,we took the same cab and because of my stupidity,the taxi driver scolded me for putting all 3 bags with me..(i sat in the front)..fine,patience is my friend that day. So,the girls got out early from me and by the time the cab arrived at my cousin's condominium,he didnt want to go deeper road and asked me to go walk alone.. How rude! he is such a bullshit..But becasue i was extremely tired,i dont want to argue wit him and pay double..yes,double the fare..he's good right? stupid fucking old man. And there was me,alone in the dark with 3 bags without lamp street..oh God,how freaky it was walking in an old condominium..i started to pray while walking and thank God arrived at her room..

i felt that's the worst day of my life yet..because i can feel that im the only person living alone without anyone's help..huhu.. that taught me a lot u know..

CTB3

mlm ni tda crita hantu sbb crita kisah lain pla..kisah kbiadapan certain pljr trhdp lecturr..huhuhu..bhy jga tu..i ni pun xla biadap sgt,klu btl2 xpuas ati pun i mrungut dgn kwn2 je..baik kan i..haha..yala tu.

ok i cb crita saki baki bbrapa mlm lalu..

ada kwn i ni,sdara dia alami effect ja bdpan dgn mklhluk hlus tp xpnah nmpk dpan2.. mcm ni critanya, pkul 2pg ni..smua tbgn terbau bnda busuk btul d rmah dorg ni..cari punya cari rupanya bangkai tikus mati..so,c mamat ni pun dtugaskn mbuang bangkai ni..ya,pd pkul 2pg ni kna buang..xkanla mo buang di tong smph rmah pla..lg la bau bsuk yg trmat kan..so,c mamat ni pun kenala buang di tmpt jauh. sblh tgn kirinya pgang pnyodok yg ada bangkai dan sblh kanan pla stat enjin motor..blum smpat pun motor hidup,dia dgr bunyi 'slurrp!' dgn pntasnya..skali dia tgk di pnyodoknya,bangkai tu sda tiada. bygkn btapa tkjutnya mamat ni smpi esoknya dmam. Tu br dgr,blum lg bdpan..ish3...

CTB (Cerita time berbuka)

ok2..ada byk lg crita ni..i pun knala code swtich my language for appropriate use la kan..hehe..i akn guna bhs sms utk mmdhkan kerja i menaip..tau2la,i ni mls orgnya mo tulis full2 ni..bhs rojak pun byk jga ni..tp u guys phm jga kan..hehe..ok smbung crita..

ni dcritakan olh wrter post sblm ni..klu xphm,sila bc post sblm ni yakni d bwh ya..

C polan ni slalu dinasihati olh neneknya supy jgn simpn atau biar nasi brtrabur slps mkn..klu blh buang la..klu tdak,nasi sbutir tu akn btukar jd 'gula-gula'..phm jga kan 'gula-gula' tu apa kan.. olh krana c polan ni xpcaya sgt,satu hari dia pun test ambil nasi brtrbur lpas dia mkn n ltak d atas meja slbh katilnya..so guess what,benda tu ada btul2 d sblhnya ms dia tdur..huuuu...mcm crita pocong 2 pla..tp mmg seram jga la crita pocong 2 tu..sesuai dtgk olh org2 yg suka horror mcm i ni.hehe. so,itula pnglamn c polan ni..

cerita time berbuka..

memang bez la bbuka dgn kwn2..byk rangkuman cerita2 yg dceritakn olh mrk2 ni..nikmatnya mndgr crita smpi mrmang bulu2 roma ini wlupun di bulan ramadhan..hehe..dajal sungguh..apa2pun,stiap cerita ini dcritakn olh org2 yg bnar ya..sprti yg dikata olh c pnceritanya..mrila!

cerita pertama

ada sorg writer ni..dia mnceritakn kisahnya buat kali prtama stlh mmndamnya atas alsn utk tdak mmudartkan nm skolhnya..oleh sbb writer ini tdak dktahui nmnya,biarla kita mmnggilnya polan. dlm crita ini ada 3 watak,c polan dan dua kwn2 c polan. kita nmkan mereka A dan B..ok,satu mlm c A nak p toilet..jd dia mintala tman dgn c B ni p toilet..c writer pla tgh tdur. jadi smpi d toilet,c B ni tggula d luar smbil tgk2 cermin..harus diigt ya,keadaan pd ms itu adlh lewat mlm..msh lg brani tgk cermin..xkuasa mak. jd c B smbl mnunggu ni statla mnyanyi smbl disahut ole c A dlm toilet..jd statla mreka mnyanyi bduet2 ala2 artis kampung..ttba..c A stop mnyanyi..c B ni statla panggil2 c A..tp tiada sahutan..stlh pnggl bkali2..still tiada respon..jd xsdapla hati c B ni.
Dia pun p la pnggl kwn2nya d asrama tu tmsuk c writer ni..dorg pun spakat mo tndang pintu toilet tu stlh tiada respon dr c A. Alangkah tkjutnya bila dorg tgk keadaan c A. kpalanya msuk dlm tangki tandas dan tangannya msuk dlm lubang tndas..dan pling mngerikan,dorg nmpk satu lmbaga tgh pgang kpalanya smbil hisap2. fuhh..dasat.. jd dorg pun p la pnggl ustaz and ms ustaz tu smpi d toilet,benda tu pun sda tiada. Yg tinggal hanyala mayat kwn dorg ni iaitu c A. Mlm tu jga pihak atasn pnggl polis dan uruskn jnzah. Bsok pg cerita tu lnyap begitu sahaja krn tkut akn mnakutkn bdak2 yg lain. Dkatakan c A tlah brpindah sklah walhal sda mningal dunia. Itula ceritanya..

someone kacau i!

someone kol me these days...saying i kacau laki dia..wtf? sjak bila lg i kcu laki org ni...tlgla..i gna mxis kcu celcom laki dia..omg,stupid people wit fucking stupid mind..i'll never kol celcom wit my mxis..wtf la.i dun even know that number...smpi fmly dia kcu kol2 i sruh ckp slh nmbr..ok fine,i did that but no answer..no reply msg..ok fine..i can take it coz i already explain to the famly that mxis usually have more than 1 user that has same number..mxis ni pun 1,cbla jgn kaut keuntungan buat nmbr sm..ok,i tot its all over..than until today...lots of miskol from that fmly again..wtf? wtf? i ambil tndkn dgn tdak lyn dorg lg..buang ms i ja..igt i ni byk ms tluang ka..but,now i got ms tluang tlis blog la..but that's different ok.. damn these people,give me a break..i will not answer any mysterious kol again..or anynomous number..makes me sick u know..i ni kcu rmah tangga org?haha..bwk2la brehat..wat should i do if they keep doing like this? i know,spam them! hahaha..

bahasaku..

to all yg stat posa nanti..phm2la..time sungkai jgn mkn x igt dunia..tbangkalan nant..free2 dpt ajal..ngeh3..

jgnla sakai btul bila tgk mknn2 d bazar tu..nda jga hbs tu..ksian kucing2 kgmukn mkn sisa kmu..ish2..

sdap kan curi2 mkn..tu ms time kcil la..plg sdp tgk sikui yg mgiurkan..na skali knapatan, matai la kmu olh pihak2 atsn..tu blum klu kbangkalan lg....hahaha..posa btul2..

kita sbg muslim knala gipit btul2 prinsip iman kita time posa ni..bsar sda ba kita ni..agak2la jga..mkn tapuk2 ni ndada faedahnya..tmbh lg yg nda posa..ish,bkin malu ja..ak mmg knfm nda mgaku kwn tau kluarga klu mcm tu..ak tatak lg la ada..bidanya prangai..haha

andang2 la blog dlm bhsku hr ni..ngeh3..pndi kan ak mnembirang..hehe..dui..trign pla milo ping skrg..sbr ajie..sbr...

couldnt sleep now..

waa..newsflash! i cant sleep right now..which is kinda weird for a person who likes sleeping by this time..i was thinking..yeah..i was thinking about zee avi..nice 'kantoi' song though..its kinda retro and nice to hear..lol... im so lazy to reply sms right now..poor thing,i should've told him something that he should know for the first place..but,hell yeah..its not gonna kill him..yet. my feeling to sms or any technology right now is blurring.. of course that exclude internet..other stuffs like hp,mp3,external,pendrive...what else..hmm.. why did i said blur,its because i dont feel like i need them right now..yes,right now only..feels like wanna sleep but cannot..i should study at least by this time but its just not the right time..fyi,i dont spend my evening with studying..i spend it when the right times come..like if its midterm or assignment..lol..what a lazy person..

kantoi..by Zee avi..


Semalam I call you, you tak answer.
You kata you keluar pergi dinner.
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you.
But when I called Tommy he said it wasn't true.

So I drove my car pergi Damansara.
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola.
Tapi bila I sampai you, you tak ada.
Lagilah I jadi gila.

So I called and called sampai you answer.
You kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar.
My phone was on silent, I was at the gym.
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

Sudahlah sayang, I don't believe you.
I've always known your words were never true.
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.

So I guess that's the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy.

think about it..the lyric...

Lately i really enjoy the remix version of hush hush by PCD..its kinda unique and makes me ponder a lil bit..lol. Am i really that strong? do i really needed you for anything that i should be needed from you? do you know me?.. all this tings makes me think for 5 minutes..hmmm..

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself
I don't why you think you got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

this week i dont hv to go to class coz i got ILI..thank God its not h1n1.. i got mc for 7days straight and now i got 4days left.. though my fever has gone,i still feel bodyache,flu and the latest,cough.. i feel uncomfortable wearing mask these days and i feel lonely..i guess sooner or later i will hv to adapt this 'loneliness' as who knows? i might be living alone one day just for pursuing career..

now i know why those who lives alone have cat or dog in their house,its because they want to have someone to talk to in their house..i felt kinda like that but because im not an animal lover,so the feeling just on and off..

its been a while not doing online but i think of it in a bright side..it means,live your life! i must see another world bsides online-ing for 24/7..lol..

all in all,i hope i can recover fast and get back on track in studies..besides,this is the time for me to enjoy my 'loneliness'! ciao!

bipolar people are weird!

i thought i would never experience bipolar people in such young age..but now,i know i will eventually face it.. oh God,how ugly it was..so ugly that i cant express it with such nice words..lol

this person is a friend of mine,(of kos it has to be my friend..if not my friend,i probbly not facing it).. in front of me looks ok but damn God knows what happened at my back.. it looks normal as u can see it as normal but this person..hmm...does not know how to express her feeling in the right place..eve i hate that side of her..but,all in all,she still my friend.. i have to admit that too.

im kinda sleepy now..nk tdur..nant smbung crita..bnda2 mcm ni buat i sleepy bcoz it drains me mentally..haha