I feel homesick..

I miss my mother so much..

I miss my father too..

When I'm at home for the first day of holidays, I will look forward to see my mother..

Since she is a working mum, I'll have to meet her after office hours..well,sometimes after 7pm..

By that time, I'll be in my room whether sleeping (since I'll be tired from jet lag..LOL), praying or unpack my things.

She will call my name from downstairs..and when I told my sister I'll come down in a while (which actually not a while,because I'll spend quite a time doing nonsense in my room)..

She will shout from downstairs,

'Dont you want to salam mama?'

Then I will rush downstairs and find her..

And gives her the most sincere smile ever..

I miss you mum..

I miss my dad too..

He is the one who will take me from the airport and on the way to home, he will tell new stories that I missed while I was away..

My dad has been taking me from any places (Schools,tuition centers,etc..) since I was 5 years old..and now he is still doing the same to my other siblings..sometimes when Im at home, when I did all those works,I felt tired and know how it feels like doing that for years..

And my youngest brother is 10 years old..he will do these until..I dont know..

Who knows,maybe my parents will take care of their grandchildren and do this all over again..who knows right?

About my father..

He is a good listener because I always tells him spastic humour and shocking world news..(rare girl)..

He never mad crazily at me..Because if he's mad,then I'll mad and will not talk to him..But that was when i was in high school.

Since I went to further my studies in Selangor after SPM, he never mad at me (I tried to recall any incidents but none comes yet)

Except my mum, she will mad if I ask for my allowance..LOL..always.

I wonder how much money they spend on me and my siblings..since my mum is a great accountant( which is why she is so stingy about giving extra money) and my dad is a businessman (again,talking about numerical things,debit,credit,'buku lejar'..all about economy things)..

I think they know how much they spent on us siblings..and I dont even want to know..

Because I will feel extra2 guilty.

There was one time during my high school days, I spend almost RM400 on home telephone because I didnt have credit on my handphone and missed my Exbf so much..

So,I called him and you know how much Telekom will charge if you called handphone number than home number..So silly I was by that time.

And just so you know,my dad dont know about calling my Exbf,he thought I called my friend from other district..(but I think he knows)..

I got scolded of course but just for a while..thank God.


When Im with my parents, i will laugh at my best because i want them to know how happy i was with them..

Now,I missed laughing in front of them..

I did it?!

2 days ago while I was doing facebooking,I got message chat from my cousin. She ask whether I know when will my other cousin (which lives in Bangi) is going to give birth.

I answered,'early next month.'

but she said,'well, she's in labour now'..

I was shocked. Well, for me its kinda early since her due was in the middle of november.

so,my mind already set that my cousin will give birth in 5th november,which is on my birthday..LOL..or any date nearer..

So,she asked whether I could go to the hospital and accompany her.

But I couldnt go on the spot since it was raining and plus,no transport (I prefer own's car than public transport,I'm kinda not into Komuter since that incident)

So, there I was,in a dilemma.

Why? well I have to submit my assignment (10 pages) on Monday and have 3 quizzes also on that day.

If I were to go accompany her, I will spend my weekend helping her and I will not have time to do my assignment.

So, my plan?

After receiving that news after Asar, I quickly opened my baby Dhani and started doing it instaneously..

With 9 borrowed books, I started with zero page...

I know that I had to finished this assignment tonight..

With an intense focused and headache (which something that actually rare to happen on me)..

At 11pm.

I finished it.

I just couldnt believe it.

I think it's a good thing that this labour thing happened this week because it boost my mentality finishing my work.

next thing?

bring my notes for the 3 quizzes.

that's all.

I went to Hospital Kajang after Subuh with the help of my senior. Love her!

But..

when we arrived there which was nearly 8 am..

We couldnt get in because the visitor's time starts at 1pm.

HUHU!

after much persuasion to the lady guard,still there's nothing that we could do.

I guess I will not accompany her this weekend.

Me and my senior went back to the campus and arrived before noon.

I was tired due to lack of sleep. I had two hours of sleep because maybe I was worried and excited..LOL

so,now!?

I will focus on my quizzes.

I hope. LOL

I should know

..that Im not a clever person

..that Im not a good person

..that Im not a good helper

..that Im used to lying

..that not all likes me

..that not all can accept my opinion

..that Im a very hot-tempered person

..that not everyone understands me

..that I cant understand all people

..that Im just doing my job

..that Im a sensitive person

..that other's sensitivity is also essential

..that saying NO can save me

..that my ability in comprehensing my native language is getting worse

..that I love God

..that I miss my family

..that Im actually a loner

..that even a bag of money can recover my faith..

..that my health is getting critical

..that it is my duty to not make my family worry

..that..

This is Me.

The worst dinner so far..

No,I'm not saying the AGM MISI that were held last night were the worst one..

It's the other dinner..which we had to pay rm15.

Why did I said so?

Well, I paid rm15 to expect good stuff..I mean,the money that I invested especially 'dinner' should be real fantastic..

However,IT BECAME THE WORST ONE..

The food sucks!

REAL sucks!

I mean,the mee curry was not so delicious..and I cant take full amount of gravy which was supposed to because they afraid the food will be not enough for others.

Oh come on! I was like the last 8 person to take the food and still they want to minimize the gravy?!!

But it kinda ok because I cant finished it due to the taste. Thank God!

The pengat tasted sour..like it had been there for years..


AND..

LACK OF SPOONS!!!

Come on! For God's sake!

I had to wait for 20 minutes to eat properly..

DAMN!

I would rather buy dinner plate KFC plus cheezy wedges than investing my money over this dinner.

WORST!

I cant believe I took my friend's words for this.



A Much More Better Formal Dinner


Then there was my block dinner which I had to pay rm3..

Guess what?

It expect anyone's expectation!

the food was great!

The satay,lontong..superb!

No insufficient of cutleries..


I had to comment only foods since that is my priority in attending formal dinner..

Some suggest to not go to any event conducted by some clubs because of their inability of satisfying costumer..

Well,I dont know yet..

I'll see if I can overcome my pityness to friends that wanted me to come to their event even if it costly.

I hate pity!

The seriousness starts today..

This week I'm gonna be someone who is crazy..

......

try to entertain people but if I cannot make myself happy,then its just a waste..

i cant hide my unsatisfied face..

I'll show it and its up to you whether to accept it or not..

This is me..

I am me..for twice more..

Got a happy ending in a moody day..

why did I said so?

Well,some things that I thought went missing on that day finally return to me..

I got my Korean spoon which i thought already being thrown away with the food packages.. I didnt realized that I put it beside the sink..

I got my friendship with my lovely friends on the roll..

I got my lover also on the roll..haha!

Scandals? Do you think I will write it here?

hmm...perhaps next time..LOL

God do help me in various way to cheer me up..

So,I shouldnt be ego AND not giving up in finding something that is not lost yet..

Be careful me..

p/s: When will I do my assignments?..

I had a mood swing today..

I tried to accomplish something today and sadly,it doesnt come true..

Since I woke up this morning, I already feel moody..

Get up,got SMS from my friend and invited me to join her to buy her things..

So there I go, wash up and wear clothes..went to see them and went to tesco Ampang..

Still,no one can cheer me..I still feel something missing..

But, even when I dont have a good mood, I still managed to buy towel and certain things..(thanks God Im dont have a moody-should-g0-shopping-to-release-stress syndrome)..just a things that I need to buy..not that unnecessary things..

Went to this nasi ayam restaurant..I forgot the name.. The taste was so and so ,the teh o ice was so not delicious..uwekk!

After that,went to hostel..surfing and sleeping..

here I am,just woke up and blogging..

yet,I'm not in a good mood..

Still,there is tonight..maybe it can change?

Am I still sad? Mad? Unsatisfied?..let's see tonight's progress..

long time no blog...

Wah!

its been a long time not updating my blog...

lots of assignment to be done and yet I still dont have the courage to do them...

any story?

yes I have...



I was celebrating with my ex during raya last2 week... As you can see in the picture above,he is among the boys....well you will know which one since my type of favourite guy now and forever is someone like Koo Kien Keat..hehe

ANOTHER shocking story I heard today...

Rumour that said I already engaged really managed to make my day a heaven..(in heart)..



The truth is,

It's not true...haha! Come on! I still enjoy my single life now! let me live!


Any nice story?

Yes I do have...nice one..

Tada!



I got new baby last week...his name is Dhani.. My precious baby boy weight 1.15kg,white skin,10.1 inch height....Love him so much...mama have poem for you..

Such a fragile thing
Lost in a world of nowhere
Hold me and I will protect you
Such a fragile darling...

Mama will try to protect and look after you..mmuah3!