A Friend's Confession

These few days I've been listening to 2AM song entitled 'A Friend's Confession'..with meaningful words,I know lots of people have experienced this kind of feeling. Me? I never experience this situation yet..all that I know,if I face it some day,I will learn something.

The lyric:

It's been a while
since my heart has been changing,
since I've been dealing with it lonesome..
every time you came back,
I hated the guy that made you cry

I'd rather protect you,
although I don't know if it will make it better...

This time I'll hold you and love you
is what I thought

Baby, come to me now
And be my lady
I've watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart.

As a friend, to remain as friends,
I had to push the confessions down my throat
But now I'll confess to you,
I love you...

You hold my hand and tell me you only have me
Keeping me as a friend,
you say it's a blessing
Whenever you say let's never change,
I had to push my feelings down

It might be best if I protect you,
not knowing if it will be better

I kept hearing it but I kept cool
I was too scared to lose you, but...

Baby (Baby) Come to me now (Come to me)
And be my lady (lady)
I've watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart (No)

As a friend (Your friend), to remain as friends (I know),
I had to push the confessions down my throat (The overflowing words)

That confession (confession) I had to hold it in (I couldn't say it)
But now I'll confess to you,
I love you...

When the ice melts

three hundred and sixty degree of spin off had moved around the air..

for me,the anticipation regarding the situation doesnt really boost the increasing level of dignity for more..


has the hair of solution has slowly giving up?

no,its not the problem that one faces..mere hope.


then? the filteration of unsatisfying lean has changes all.

has it proven the acknowledgement? please..nothing can beat it..


dug your height of damnation if u think of redemption.

Laugh.

Omayra Sanchez

When I was little,I saw this programme about tragedy and it was about this kid trapped in a water and cannot be rescued even with the help of a helicopter..

I was wondering why they couldnt help her and let her died..

The kid waved goodbye to the camera and it shocked me..Well as a kid, it really took me apart psychologically...

Then last night I saw this kid's photo on the World's Famous Photo Ever article..


That kid is Omayra Sanchez.




After so many years finding the truth (and I even thought it was a dream)..I finally understand why they cannot rescued her.

This is what I found:

Omaira Sanchez was 13 years old at the time and lived with her parents, her brother and an uncle. However, prior to the tragedy, her mother had traveled to Bogotá on business. The night of the disaster, she and her family had awakened and heard of the volcanic fluid going in their direction. In the process of evacuating to a nearby mount, Omaira's grandmother fell into a water aqueduct hole, and Omayra herself stopped with the intent to rescue her trapped sibling, when the flow reached them. Omayra got trapped under her own home's concrete and debris and could not escape. When rescue teams tried to help her, they realized that her legs were trapped.

...

I recommend to see her video on youtube,where she asked the reporter what News channel was it and ...

She sent a message to her mom..very emotional..

'"Mum, if you are listening to me, I think you are... pray so I can walk and this people can help me... Mummy, my daddy, my brother and me love you deeply. Goodbye mother"

You can see it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKL2M-qw4sU

May she rest in peace.

My wish for this year's birthday presents..So IMPOSSIBLE

I want these things! LOL..You wish Lala!


1. Chocolate moist + ice cream cake..nyummmy!





2. Snow globe that has snow (of course!) + light..OMG!


3. White-gold ring..So cute on my finger!




4. White Nike shoes..So sportilicious!




5. Silver bracelet..Gorgeous!




6. A cute xylophone..Im good at this,you know..






7. My ultimate white Kelisa..My Daniel!




8. And..A Slit-eyed Guy!!!! LOL



'Darling,can you help me with this tie?'..OMG!!!!


Although I couldnt get these things, just thinking of them makes me happy! LOL..Imagination really makes my day! Happy Birthday Me!

Mendengar dan Didengar.

Dalam menjadi seorang Aku, aku belajar beberapa perkara yang penting yang selama ini aku tinggalkan..

Aku belajar yang perlunya mendengar daripada didengar..

kadang-kala aku terleka dengan kemanisan yang aku nikmati..

kadang-kala aku terlupa akan kemanisan yang Dia beri..

Aku sedar betapa pentingnya mendengar daripada didengar

Aku sedar yang kadang-kala didengar itu bukannya sesuatu yang bernas dan penuh isinya..

Namun..

Aku masih belajar,

belajar menempuhi dan menghadapi ujian dariNya..

kadang-kala aku tewas

kadang-kala aku dapat menghadapinya.


Dan aku sedar walaupun aku bersendirian,

akan ada insan-insan yang mendampingiku dan menolongku

walaupun aku jarang mendengar

walaupun aku selalu didengar

Aku harap itu bukan penutupnya

kerana Aku masih ingin mendengar.

I feel homesick..

I miss my mother so much..

I miss my father too..

When I'm at home for the first day of holidays, I will look forward to see my mother..

Since she is a working mum, I'll have to meet her after office hours..well,sometimes after 7pm..

By that time, I'll be in my room whether sleeping (since I'll be tired from jet lag..LOL), praying or unpack my things.

She will call my name from downstairs..and when I told my sister I'll come down in a while (which actually not a while,because I'll spend quite a time doing nonsense in my room)..

She will shout from downstairs,

'Dont you want to salam mama?'

Then I will rush downstairs and find her..

And gives her the most sincere smile ever..

I miss you mum..

I miss my dad too..

He is the one who will take me from the airport and on the way to home, he will tell new stories that I missed while I was away..

My dad has been taking me from any places (Schools,tuition centers,etc..) since I was 5 years old..and now he is still doing the same to my other siblings..sometimes when Im at home, when I did all those works,I felt tired and know how it feels like doing that for years..

And my youngest brother is 10 years old..he will do these until..I dont know..

Who knows,maybe my parents will take care of their grandchildren and do this all over again..who knows right?

About my father..

He is a good listener because I always tells him spastic humour and shocking world news..(rare girl)..

He never mad crazily at me..Because if he's mad,then I'll mad and will not talk to him..But that was when i was in high school.

Since I went to further my studies in Selangor after SPM, he never mad at me (I tried to recall any incidents but none comes yet)

Except my mum, she will mad if I ask for my allowance..LOL..always.

I wonder how much money they spend on me and my siblings..since my mum is a great accountant( which is why she is so stingy about giving extra money) and my dad is a businessman (again,talking about numerical things,debit,credit,'buku lejar'..all about economy things)..

I think they know how much they spent on us siblings..and I dont even want to know..

Because I will feel extra2 guilty.

There was one time during my high school days, I spend almost RM400 on home telephone because I didnt have credit on my handphone and missed my Exbf so much..

So,I called him and you know how much Telekom will charge if you called handphone number than home number..So silly I was by that time.

And just so you know,my dad dont know about calling my Exbf,he thought I called my friend from other district..(but I think he knows)..

I got scolded of course but just for a while..thank God.


When Im with my parents, i will laugh at my best because i want them to know how happy i was with them..

Now,I missed laughing in front of them..

I did it?!

2 days ago while I was doing facebooking,I got message chat from my cousin. She ask whether I know when will my other cousin (which lives in Bangi) is going to give birth.

I answered,'early next month.'

but she said,'well, she's in labour now'..

I was shocked. Well, for me its kinda early since her due was in the middle of november.

so,my mind already set that my cousin will give birth in 5th november,which is on my birthday..LOL..or any date nearer..

So,she asked whether I could go to the hospital and accompany her.

But I couldnt go on the spot since it was raining and plus,no transport (I prefer own's car than public transport,I'm kinda not into Komuter since that incident)

So, there I was,in a dilemma.

Why? well I have to submit my assignment (10 pages) on Monday and have 3 quizzes also on that day.

If I were to go accompany her, I will spend my weekend helping her and I will not have time to do my assignment.

So, my plan?

After receiving that news after Asar, I quickly opened my baby Dhani and started doing it instaneously..

With 9 borrowed books, I started with zero page...

I know that I had to finished this assignment tonight..

With an intense focused and headache (which something that actually rare to happen on me)..

At 11pm.

I finished it.

I just couldnt believe it.

I think it's a good thing that this labour thing happened this week because it boost my mentality finishing my work.

next thing?

bring my notes for the 3 quizzes.

that's all.

I went to Hospital Kajang after Subuh with the help of my senior. Love her!

But..

when we arrived there which was nearly 8 am..

We couldnt get in because the visitor's time starts at 1pm.

HUHU!

after much persuasion to the lady guard,still there's nothing that we could do.

I guess I will not accompany her this weekend.

Me and my senior went back to the campus and arrived before noon.

I was tired due to lack of sleep. I had two hours of sleep because maybe I was worried and excited..LOL

so,now!?

I will focus on my quizzes.

I hope. LOL